It's been a while old friend

"I can't sleep again"
"Here i'll hug you"

The next thing i knew i was sound asleep

;)

I'm looking for great tunes for my ipod so it's new and fresh for my long bus rides to school, please send me info my way...thanks ahead of time to all who are still on this site

Today is Magoo's 5 months...that's about the ONLY good news i've had all day and for an Italian on friday the 13th which is suppose to be our lucky number, this day has been pretty draining, all sorts of bad news flying around me.

I'm heading for Ottawa soon again, i'm going more often these days cuz my godfather who has MS is not doing so well and his devoted wife Julie is having a harder and harder time coping and physically helping him....then there's the sad gossip in regards to his caretaker, man, i wish for a happy ending.

Does anyone else feel old?! Though many of you are in fact older than me, i had to take a second and realize we're not even in our 30s yet we're all so settled, so secure and cemented in our routines but we're so fucking young! When i look around this mall and see all the "elders" i'm really motivated to ad spontaneity to my life, to all of our lives so i propose this: CELEBRATING NEW YEAR'S EVE 2008 in MEXICO!

Why Mexico? Cuz my friend Susana is going there for a school exchange and brought up the great point that she's finishing her exchange around x-mas and would love to travel around for a bit afterwards and promised me it would not cost more than 400$ last minute deal flight to get there!! (She's from there, i trust her)...

If you're in great if not, have fun in your old age! ;)

Went to Kosta's dad's funeral today, it was so overwhelming, we all cried a lot, it was just seeing Kosta so fragile that did it for me, him and his aunt, they were just so vulnerable. I feel closer to him, though I guess it's due to him seeing me cry and vise versa, I think crying is good for the soul and it brings back the reality that we all bleed the same blood, there is just no use of drama and gossip anymore, I've decided after today to make my choices in order to change my life for the better, I'm not cutting anyone out of my life but I'm going to maximize my friendships with those who I actually feel a mutual sense of respect and involvement, I'm not going to chase anyone or help someone who won't turn around and help me in my time of need. I know who they are, I guess wishful thinking and me being naive, hold on to them thinking they'll change but now, as adults, anyone over the age of 21 is responsible for their lives and who is in them and we should all know that people don't change much when they're set in their age and self.

So that being said, I'm anxious for life, I feel fresh and sad at the same time but i assure you, it's all in a good way.

Seriously though, I've never met Kosta's dad but I'm sure he was a decent man if he got so many of us to cry and mourn his death. Kosta's mom is strong, she kept it together better than I ever could. Life, love, friends, all worthwhile, drama, gossip, manipulators: out of my life please

Tyson your phone is off could you call me please if it`s before 7pm, somewhat important ;)

Busy weekend, work all day then go home to change for my flight attendant friend`s good-bye bbq at Bianca`s house.

It`s also Grand Prix weekend and Matt is leaving for the summer so i was thinking of heading downtown later tonight to celebrate...

Tomorrow Chloë`s return and ladies night at Iza`s...anxious for both, need to buy some booze.

Kim`s coming today for my lunch which makes the day go by faster, gives me something to look forward to in 2 hours. :) Saw Mr. Brooks last night, i won`t say *anything* but it was really good, if you enjoy thrillers and or serial killer movies. Dane Cook was in it, not too bad of an actor better than Ashton (i say this since Demi Moore was in it too)

Tyson`s at the cottage all weekend, good for him, at least they have good weather, hope they`re swimming much! Wish i was back home cuddling with Ebby and Magoo, they are so cute together now, becoming buddies at last.

If you guys are bored and get too hot and want some nice cool air, come see me!!

Restless and busy week, my hips and wrists have been especially hurting due to our annoying weather but i`ll go and fix that asap with the help of my mom and her car to get me to t.m.r. to see my doctor...

Other than that whinny news, love seems to be in the air with all my friends lately, it`s quite adorable but i`ve still yet to find or meet the man for maxine, though it`s not to say i`m trying to step in where happenstance belongs but still, i want her to be happy and no, i`m not saying it takes a man to make her happy but who doesn`t love summer love? She`s dating and i think she enjoys the lift to her ego but i think we all want to be laughing at silliness and dancing with some strong arms around our waists...what girl doesn't?

Thinking of ladies night tonight, even though i`m very tired i feel like staying out because my mom has been more than stressed lately and targetting my brother and I (maxine moved out for the summer to ste anne village to sublet her friend`s place)

Chloë`s returning from Winnepeg on Sunday, i`m super thrilled and want to see her pics, she is at last securing herself with secure men. Thankfully no more drama and immturity should arise, at least not for a while, i`ll give the new couple 3 months of that bliss before reality sets in and they realize how far apart they live... :( I want them to make it work, there`s gotta be jobs here for him in Montreal.........

K, i think that about covers it, can`t wait for warm weather and happy times!
xoxo

Well, yesterday was fun indeed, went to see Seb`s vernisage and then needed a coffee so headed out with Nora and Luiza for Starbucks...got a nice capuccino, got picked up by this black lady who insisted i have her winning loto ticket (one free 1$ ticket)...she in a very creepy way just left to then stare at us from the outside with a very sinister smile...anyhoo, ended up shopping for 2 hours, went to meet Jodi at the vernisage where we then got tipsy on free wine.

Left with Nora and Kosta for her place, she cooked us yummy italian, then went to Le Vestiaire, had 2 fabulous gin & tonics, gossiped and chatted like girls do (though it`s almost ridiculous how fun with Nora), grabbed a hot dog poutine at La Banquise somewhere far, need a car...it was AMAZING,

Grabbed my last 211 and headed home, chatted with my injured brother for a half an hour, headed for bed and watched 3 episodes of The Sopranos, went to sleep after 4am, woke up to my brother urging me to come downstairs because a dog passed out...

Got downstairs to see MAGOO lying on the counter passed out, my mom`s fretting and almost in tears but i say to him ¨Hey little Magoo¨ and he moves and opens his eye and licks my nose, i grabbed him and hold him and give him tons of water. He fainted, my mom thought he was dead, Jordan and I think he was de-hydrated cuz he`s so little and moves around so much, he`s convinced he`s bigger than he physically is, tries to keep up with Ebony...he`s only 3 months, he`s under weight and has already had 2 surgeries, we think it`s the stress from the surgeries, his injuries/healing and then of course the adjustment of a new family/home/other dog.... poor baby...

Though he`s perfectly fine now and we`re going to bring him to Pascale his doctor, all seems well!

Eventful days, happy as always, might go see my female crush Maggie at Duffy`s tonight, it`s her last night before she heads back up North, she`s ridiculously gorgeous! Ladies night for those who are interested, a great way to save a buck!

Peace homies!

:)

Think happy thoughts: MAGOO

He`s cute and still super tiny and i`m hoping for a lift tonight so i don`t get stranded in Dorval so i can`t get home to him.

There is much i want to say and no worries, i`m not keeping it in, i`m just also becoming aware that when i say it like it is or voice something out it surfaces my own vulnerabilities and i`m not in the mood to deal with all those emotions.

I`m thinking of going to New York, alone or with people, i know i just returned from a trip but i really feel the need and urgency to get away from people and routines.

Tyson`s b-day i think was a success; it left tyson puking and passed out. How i just want to cuddle. I`m really down today.